So Many things....

So I haven't written in a while and I have been going through a bit. First off I am trying to get my health under control and that takes alot of time and patience. I am on a 1300 calorie diet for now and I am seeing a weight loss surgeon to have the bypass done this year....around June-ish. I am also going to a endroocrinlogist to get my diabetes under control and it is helping slowly. My headaches and nose issues are still about the same but I have tried the rinses of my nose yet, I am scared to try that, but I am going to next pay check. My doctor increased my meds for my headaches and I will go back to my ENT if my headaches dont get better with the med increase and the rinses. I have put on a little weight with the 1300 cal diet :( and that is causing my lower back to hurt alot! My endrocrin doctor isnt concered about the weight gain yet though. My job is going well I have been there for alomost a year now and I have cut my hours back for now to 44 hours a week till I have my surgery. My family, well that is the big stress in my life! Sister is mad at me again for stupid facebook drama. My mom is still drinking, she actually fell tonight and cut her arm....my dad has COPD, and still smokes cigs. My parents still fight and my mom still comes to me to vent. My dad just doesnt seem to care anymore about anything, about himeself or me. My sister, she has two jobs part time and that seems to have helped her problems with her stomach but she still hasnt gotten diagnosed with anything so we still dont know what or why she has problems. I have alot going on right now and it so hard. I am so scared about the surgery but I know I have to do it. I only have my husband that supports me, my "rock" that is in my family and that is hard as well.  I dont understand how family can take and take and take and NEVER give anything back. I have always bent over backwards for my family and friends to help them whenever they needed me I did my very best to be there, but when I needed them, they arent there, the family that is. My friends are more family to me then my blood family is. I have a few songs lyrics that I want to get and piece them and combine them and write another blog about how I feel about my family.....till then....